So for the first time, ever in every single relationship I've had.. . I've never wanted something like this . I dont want to cheat, I dont want another man to touch me. The is no intrigue, nor rush, nothing.. ( And I'm sorry but my past is not the best )... But I just want him...
And he doesn't want me.. at least sexually he doesn't and I've never had that happen ever... I want to make love to him I want to kiss him, on his back on his neck, all over ... But yet I find myself almost begging for sex almost every night.. To only get the showing of love that I long for maybe twice a week..
I feel rejected
Ugly
Not good in bed
He no longer is attracted to me
Not pleasurable
I don't know how to say this problem without being played out to be a hussie.... but lets just say I'm amazing in bed and he is basically the only one that has EVER denied me...
After all this turmoil and tough childhood, and rough marriages, and divorces.. Why or why... Do I have this man that I love so unconditionally that I will never ever cheat or even think about kissing another man....., And he Not want me.
Hey, I really suck at talking about relationships, and I don't know what to say about this. From what I can see on Facebook it looks like you're really happy with him and I'm glad because you deserve that. I just want to tell you that I think you are amazing and I love you and wish we lived close so we could hang out together.
ReplyDeleteI wish you were too! And of course I make everything sound peachy keen on facebook.... .... After him coming back from mexico.. It almost seems like the beginningof the end :(
ReplyDeleteOh, I'm sorry. :( I guess I sort of know how you feel; Mike's just not a very huggy, touchy person and I really, really am (at least with him). Sometimes he makes a really concentrated effort to hug me more, but even then it just barely gets close to what I need. Have you read The Five Love Languages? Unfortunately he and I have very different love languages and that's... well, awful sometimes. We both try to work on it (I try to NEED less) but it's not easy and most of the time it doesn't feel like anything's getting better.
ReplyDeleteHave you talked to him about it? (This is just a nosy question, not me trying to give advice or anything. Just wondering where you both are with it.)
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