Not Expecting this one....

 October 3rd 2011
Sooo I know I haven't done this in a long long long long long time.
Well because of a shit ton of things that have happened.. Divorce, Love, Loss of Job, Trying to Find a Job,Loss of job again Yes its been ridiculously hard
So these past 4 days .. yes it sounds very short . I've been healthy, and dealing and happy, and loving,.... slightly annoyed at times but I always able to deal with the things that came my way.
AMAZING that my, love is so honest and he will except me threw thick and thin....

So today I went in to change my Birth control today at the regular Primary Phyicisan that I've gone to since I was 16..... Takes a while to come into the room for this usual thing and she hold two papers....

And says you have the pre cell formations of cervical cancer, aka displasia here is a referral to gynecologist  ....                                                                                                      When I was 19 I was diagnosed with the same thing 19... I had a a cryo surgery to freeze and kills the cells

6 years later.......... Its back

Who knows how bad... the last pap was in Aug 2010
Then the next was July 2011 and then they had the wrong effing "primary number" ... even though my primary  call was never my right number it was a random number I've never had... BUTTTT... THINK OF THAT??? OH MY DOESN'T EVERYONE USE CELLS NOW!! Why yes everyone does and that's the only number I use. And so does prob every american ,,,.So I just barely heard about it. Today!

So yay. Im gunna get shitty drunk cuz no one is here to hold me.

Then tomorrow. Due to my Dad and Gifford living its to herbs and homepathic I will be on strict diet , living, and working out... Plus the doctors notes.